Fine. I'll admit it. Right here, in print: I am a silly romantic. I fall in love all the time. To be more specific: I fall in love with the 'concept' of love all the time. I'll try and clarify this.
Being someone who grew up with movies as a counterbalance to a rather strange home life, I guess I decided that the conflict between two people laid the groundwork for some hot fireworks in the sack later on. Not such a guarantee in reality. Yet hopelessly devoted to the concept.
I can trace this back to high school, and the boyfriend who broke my heart. I didn't help the situation either.
I look back now at the men I've fallen for while in the party circuit; Southern gentleman Ashley committed to another guy who loved him enough to leave the West Coast for the Deep South, yet Ashley wouldn't answer me when I asked if his love was as deep.
The drama with Mr. Big-Woods I've re-hashed here more often than there have been performances of South Pacific. Those are the main two...and I broke my own heart in both cases and I have apologized for such childishness.
But, I continue on , determined not to lose hope. Because if I do: I'm a dead man.
Being someone who grew up with movies as a counterbalance to a rather strange home life, I guess I decided that the conflict between two people laid the groundwork for some hot fireworks in the sack later on. Not such a guarantee in reality. Yet hopelessly devoted to the concept.
I can trace this back to high school, and the boyfriend who broke my heart. I didn't help the situation either.
I look back now at the men I've fallen for while in the party circuit; Southern gentleman Ashley committed to another guy who loved him enough to leave the West Coast for the Deep South, yet Ashley wouldn't answer me when I asked if his love was as deep.
The drama with Mr. Big-Woods I've re-hashed here more often than there have been performances of South Pacific. Those are the main two...and I broke my own heart in both cases and I have apologized for such childishness.
But, I continue on , determined not to lose hope. Because if I do: I'm a dead man.
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